file My baby born sleeping 10/02/11

8 years 7 months ago - 8 years 7 months ago #189126 by Miss Kay
Stillbirth is normally a taboo to talk about it and losing my child in Feb,gave me a wake up call.I have since learned that stillbirth can be prevented in so many ways.I was 31 weeks 6days when I lost my precious baby girl,I had dreams and plans for this child and my dreams were shattered when the dr didn't find a heartbeat.It was a nightmare,I didn't want to wake up from but now after 4 months I have accepted that she is out of my sight yet she will forever live in my heart,she will always be my child even if people might as well not talk about her but I remember and diarising everything about my precious Nkazi.

My pregnancy was normal with no complications,one wednesday I had a gaestro and went to see a dr the following day.Whilst on the U\S I noticed that my baby was weighing 2 weeks behind and the dr said I shouldn't worry as I was healthy and the baby's heart was strong and sent me home to come back after two weeks.I went back then I found that my baby was no more.I was induced into labour and labour lasted only 6 hours and my angel was born,perfect in every way yet without life.

I wanted to blame the dr for not reffering me to the gynae as he is a GP and and; and; but honestly I blame no one cause that won't bring back my baby.Everyday I miss her,everyday I wish it was not her,everyday I wish I can just have her back.I am a mother who is just yearning for her dead child.

Nkazimulo my angel mommy misses you.

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First daughter born on 30/06/2008,my joy and pride.
2nd daughter went to heaven to be crowned with angelic wings on 10/02/11,my hope and my strength. vutshamo.blogspot.com/
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My 3rd born baby born 12/02/12
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8 years 7 months ago #189136 by Vamo
Replied by Vamo on topic My baby born sleeping 10/02/11
One day surely you will meet Nkazi and she will tell you that she never meant to cause you any sorrow and pain.

I can never imagine what you must be going through but I can only pray that you find peace and comfort from God.

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8 years 7 months ago #189140 by Nadia
I wish you strength Miss Kay.

Mom to a gorgeous boy (4yrs) and due with number 2 in January 2015

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8 years 7 months ago #189142 by Kirst
Miss Kay I'm so sorry for your loss. Any of us who have been through pregnancy will totally understand your feeling that Nkazi will forever be your child. Her loss is no less painful than if she had died sometime after a full term birth. For most people a child only really exists after it is born, but for a mother her child exists and is loved and cherished from the moment we know we're pregnant.

Love, strength and peace to you in your mourning and on your healing journey.

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8 years 7 months ago #189170 by Huggles
Replied by Huggles on topic My baby born sleeping 10/02/11
I am so very sorry for your loss xx

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8 years 7 months ago #189352 by Reluc.t.ant M.o.m
I saw these words this morning, per chance, and it reminded me of your post .....so forgive me for cutting and pasting it here, but I felt it conveyed a sentiment that I often feel and never know how to translate in to words ......

Mourning can go on for years and years.
It doesn't end after a year, that's a false fantasy.
It usually ends when people realize that they can live again,
that they can concentrate their energies on their lives as a whole,
and not on their hurt, and guilt and pain.
Elisabeth Kübler-Ross


What keeps me (partially) sane ...
reluctantmom.wordpress.com/

What makes me smile ...
celestebarlow.wordpress.com/

What no one says out loud ...
dirtylittlesecretsmotherskeep.wordpress.com/

Location: CY country
Off spring: 3 (ages range from 2 - 9 years old)

Struggling to juggle life, kids, work, my bottle of wine, without having a total humour failure.

I have a letter from my pdoc to say I am insane, so tread lightly with me, some days I can be a total bitch. I'm lying. Most days I am a total bitch.

I abhor smiley face icons. Just saying.

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8 years 7 months ago #189362 by change in progress
Miss Kay my condolences to you and I can't imagine what you must be going through.

Having lost a loved one myself I can tell you that with time the pain becomes manageable and you will carry on living. Give it time my love. again I'm so sorry.

married for 3 years with 7 yr old daughter and 2yr old son.

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